Thoughts from the Aged and Lovely

I visited my Grandmother the other day. I love going there for tea. One because I love tea, two because I'm starting to learn that they love having me over and I have so much I can possibly learn from them. I usually like to have the mentality that I know a lot - not everything - just a lot. But my grandma is usually pretty blunt and without meaning to puts me in my place very quickly. As of late I have been trying to open up and tell her what I think because I know that she will reciprocate. And in doing so my grandma is quick to point out things in myself that I don't always like to acknowledge.

Yesterday the lesson was discipline. Man - I totally don't have it. I've known that for a long time. But its nice to know I am not alone. I was telling her all the things I was thinking about school, being scared of papers, wasting time on my computer, and things I want to do. My Grandma was kind enough to reaffirm that everyone struggles with discipline. It is one of the hardest things to achieve. One of my battles in life is how do I discipline myself? I honestly never really have had to be disciplined in anything. I always slack off and get away with whatever I can do. But I am tired of doing that because I know that there is so much more potential to enjoy things and achieve things that I would have never imagined. I want to do so many things - I want to serve God and to great things. But every time I think about these grandiose ideas the parable of the minas always comes to mind. How we need to be responsible with the little things before God entrusts us with the big things. AND - that the little things are just as important as the big things. There is no less meaning/significance in taking care of what we deem to be so little.

So, the lesson for me - or rather questions and challenges pour moi. What has God put me in charge of today, and be faithful with that. I have been slowly learning that Today is what counts - we cannot worry about tomorrow- and usually that is my first thought. Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow, there is no guarantee except for what we have now today. How can I serve God today? what is the best use of my time? How do I go about finding out what you want for me - today and tomorrow. What does it look like to be still and know that God is God? How do I be bold and courageous and go about my daily task, and my life mission with confidence that God is right in front of me? Next is discipline. haha my worst enemy -and yet would be my best friend. How does one go about and train oneself to be disciplined? Je ne sais pas.

So many questions - and I feel like I have so few answers sometimes.

I dont think this is something you can just google.



What we are required to do now is STAND erect and look the world in the face and do our duty without fear or favour"
WINSTON CHURCHILL

A look into .....

I find myself thinking about what life will look like in oh say six years. I guess its understandable - partially because that is when I will be done school. I look back at how drastically my life and views and thoughts and ideas have changed in the past couple of years.... just how much more will things change? It brings mixed emotions, and of course being me the first one is worry. Not a bad worry all in all, but worry. And excitement, and intrigue are high up on the list. Pretty much I am at a point in my life where I can do virtually anything if I let God in, and if I put my mind to it. There is so many things that I want to do - hence the worry - because I feel like I cant just pick one - and I really want to pick the right one. As I learn more and more about God, this world, and other things I find myself discontent about more and more things. Not in myself (well actually thats a lie) but with the world - and the people all around me. How can I put love into this world? I feel so insignificant sometimes because there is so much hurt and need in this world. Where do we start? I am slowly starting to realize the truth in the verse: "he who is faithful with the small things will be responsible for many things" - I don't think thats exactly how it goes but anyways.... it makes sense. I think. But my purpose is to love. I don't know what that will look like when I am done school - and sometimes I am to worried about what the finished product will look like - and what I want it to look like. Rather than worrying about this present moment - or not worrying. Thats the wrong word. Focusing. I am slowly learning to focus in on what is relevant today. Tomorrow will come - and it will come nice and ready for me. God has given me this very minute - this day to do anything and everything that I possibly can to glorify him. I don't have to worry about the big picture. Not excessively anyways because its all theoretically taken care of. The hardest part is believing that - but its worth it. It kind of simplifies life and gets rid of a little bit of stress when I focus on today and focus on God. obviously - but easier said than done. Atleast for me. I'm trying to remember that I have been blessed with so much -
I have been:
Blessed to be a blessing


P.S. This picture is of my favourite t-shirt ever. I don't know who that is but props to the t-shirt.

Wisdom Love and Unity - All in One

So there's this verse in the bible - I think it says that we are supposed to love one another as much as we love ourselves. But that's not the one I was looking for.


I actually read 1 Corinthians 1 for my small group. There is nothing about love mentioned in this passage however, feel free to hear me out. So the first part of this passage talks about divisions in the church. My first question came from verse ten.

. "I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought"

. Typical - What does this mean? however - I mean on what level, or to what extent does this remain applicable? Think about what our world looks like. Think about what Christians look like. Think about what denominations look like. Think about many groups of friends look like. We are divided beyond divided. I know for a fact that if I were to take this question to my parents church they would say that there should be agreement within a denomination. But if you look within denominations there is division. So I got to thinking - what would this look like? How cool would it look if people started to think with a discerning, yet open heart? What if - we took this passage literally? Shouldn't we be doing that anyways? I realise that this world is corrupt - and so ideally this would/should/could work - but reality is- not everyone will agree. But I ask this question.. what differences are so great that cause so much division between ourselves? What are the fundamental beliefs of being a Christian? I think that most of us would probably agree on the same things - God - three persons and yet one (call it a trinity or not) is ruler of all - knows all, is everywhere, and is just, holy, and perfect Jesus - The saviour of the nations - died and lived again - a perfect life to redeem us, a fallen people We - are the body of Christ, called to go and make disciples of all nations - baptizing them, to glorify God, and to be Holy I don't want to start a debate or anything - but why does it seem so simple? I know there are many other things that are included in the Christian faith but so many of us are hard of heart (including myself), so prideful, and we believe that everyone should see it our way. If we have to change our way of thinking that would mean several things. It would entail that we were possibly wrong, that we might have to suck somethings up, that we might have to actually humble ourselves and show people we are not perfect. I don't know - maybe I am simplifying things way too much. But I believe that there are things that everyone could benefit from every denomination. Everyone says that there is not one church... so why is it so hard to come together as one body.

The note on verse 13 sends us to Chapter 12:12-13 .

"The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. For we were baptized by one spirit into one body - whether Jew or Greek, slave or free - and we were all given the one spirit to drink"

. the study note = a unit...many parts. This example illustrates the unity and diversity of the different spiritual gifts exercised by God's people, who are all members of the one body of Christ.


. So what comes to my mind when I read this verse. I see many different people (obviously) - but I see that believing this verse has powerful connotations. I just believe that if everyone could put aside their differences - and love we would see a new movement. What would the true body of Christ look like? God has made us all different - so we shouldn't have to conform to one type of worship, to one way of connecting to God. Now I'm not referring to moral relativism or anything, but I think that we could learn a lot from what others have to say. If we were not so closed minded, or afraid to be pushed out of our comfort zone - into something different. We need a wake up call. No one is going anywhere until we clean up our act.

I think I kind of rambled a little... and Im not sure if i ended up making a point there but anyways - that was what was running through my mind when I read this part of the chapter. We could do great things - if we came together as one body. Maybe I am thinking too big maybe I am not.

All right so the second Part talks about the wisdom and power of God. Every time I read this section - it brings me to my knees. Verse 25 is one of my favorites

" For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength"

The Irony (if that is the right word) sort of just strikes me. To state the obvious - God is not foolish, ever. Nor is He weak. But we sometimes start thinking that we are so wise, so smart - we have it all figured out, and that we can handle it all. So it kind of stops us in our tracks - just plainly says right out that even God' worst -if that's even possible - is infinitely better than our 'best'. So that is one thing i pulled from this. The second thing that I thought about this verse was that when we do not know what is going on that even though God's plans may seem foolish to us - its better than what we could plan out. So sort of similar. Now as I go back and read the entire section and the history of the passage - its just basically clarifying the awesome power of our God. He is putting down the philosophers of that time and saying that God is the only one where wisdom comes from. He shows his wisdom and glory through the small things so that we might not boast in ourselves. Pretty smart if you think about it. Anyways - its just awesome how God chooses to work because it means that we must constantly keep our ears, eyes, minds and hearts open. Because we do not always know when God will 'show up' and make himself known. And the excellent closing for the day =)

"Let him who boast, boast in the Lord"

Boast in Him always - in everything we do.